It is Day 15 of the fast. I may have found a groove. The devotional this morning mentioned that just as much might be true; however, it also said that this week may end up being the toughest. I wonder why that is? Will my endurance begin to falter? Will I lose faith in whatever God is doing through this time of consecration? I admit that sometimes I struggle to see God's activity. Nevertheless, this process has turned a mirror on myself. I have seen the small ways that food has become an idol in my life. I have seen how little I pray. I have seen how hesitant I am to ask God for things that I need and desire. I have seen the embers of anger inside of me flare up.
Perhaps fasting is about vision, seeing the things that God sees, seeing the things that He wants to change.
God, give me back my joy again. You have broken me--now let me rejoice. Don't keep looking at my sins. Remove the stain of my guilt. Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a loyal spirit within me. Psalm 51: 8-10 (NLT)
Amen
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